Running from hysteria

A masters runner navigating endometrial cancer

  • Order of operations

    One of the most frequent questions I get asked is about my treatment plan, and why chemo is happening before radiation instead of the other way around. Until it was posed to me, I hadn’t thought to even ask about the order. It turns out, practical, evidence-based reasons apply, though it still surprises me how new some of the treatment recommendations are. And the order of operations really are tailored to individual circumstance.

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  • Marking time … and racing again.

    This week has been one of milestones and moving forward. It’s been six months since I was diagnosed, four months since surgery, and with Tuesday’s infusion behind me, I’m half way through the chemotherapy portion of my treatment plan. When my mind goes to ‘when will all this be done?’ it’s a useful frame to remember everything that has happened already. In training terms, I’ve been putting in the work. And with that work, comes a reward…

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  • T words: Triggers and trauma

    As much as my experience with chemotherapy is better than I imagined it might be, this journey comes with its ups and downs that can be exhausting in their own right. It’s surprising what can upset your equilibrium.

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  • Fueling for the long run

    I asked my medical oncologist today if this first cycle of chemotherapy could be looked at as a baseline — would it be repeatable over the next five rounds or should I expect something different each time? I was delighted when she said this should be the pattern and my experience should be similar each cycle. With the exception of two days of bone pain, and some general tiredness, I haven’t been bothered by a lot of…

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  • Finding a (new) baseline

    When I signed up for my first half-marathon years ago, the idea of creating a training plan seemed daunting. But slowly, the plan did come together, helped by advice from my BFF, and other runners who had half-marathons and longer distances under their belt. Now, the plan for the next 18 weeks is starting to take shape.

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  • Pre-race jitters: Chemo starts this week

    I did a thing this last week — posting on my Facebook page about my diagnosis and what comes next with treatment. Though I’m not the biggest Facebook user these days, it seemed the best way to let my really wide circle of friends and colleagues know about what was going on in my life.

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  • Everything changes

    This post started last weekend, celebrating my first run on the mountain — a glorious way to spend Easter Sunday. After testing my legs on the treadmill at the gym, I was ready — though nervous — to see what it might feel like to run on the trails for the first time since surgery. But what was an almost complete draft has been rewritten, because the view from here is changing.

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  • Endurance and empathy

    Last Friday saw two exceptional events, oddly almost overlapping in timing. Jasmin Paris, a 40-year-old veterinarian from Scotland, became the first woman to finish the Barkley Marathons and Kate Middleton, 42, announced to the world that she was receiving chemotherapy to treat a cancer diagnosis, ending weeks of online speculation about her health and whereabouts.

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  • You can’t always get what you want (or more waiting …)

    This past Tuesday was supposed to start with an appointment with my surgeon to review pathology results. It didn’t go exactly as planned. Even though it’s been five weeks since my surgery, the pathology report wasn’t ready yet. The why? of that is a good question.

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  • Souvenirs and self-image

    Today marks four weeks since my surgery. I don’t know why that seems like an important date, but that is how it feels. Moreso because I’m still in that liminal space between diagnosis, surgery, and discovering what comes next based on my pathology report.

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I’m a 60+ masters runner documenting my journey with endometrial cancer and now Cowden Syndrome.

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